Tapping Into the Divine
Traveling to India this winter was filled with so many things, but calm and restful, like usual, was not a part of the equation. My time at the ashram felt more fast paced and chaotic than ever—more like everyday life that I wrote about last week. So, although there wasn’t much time to really slow down, there were ample opportunities to tap into the divine :).
Between jet lag and a lack of sleep my emotions were heightened, especially since this was my first trip in over 15 years where my mom and I didn’t go together. I definitely experienced moments of intense awe, love and gratitude—as well as deep sadness and longing for my mom—often all in the same breathe. But amidst the chaos, there were plenty of blessings be found!
What I experienced is that in the midst of intense grief storms…when I sat down to meditate, the divine felt more palpable than ever. And, ceremonies with my guru left me in awe and filled me with such intense love. Often it felt like my heart was going to explode with a deep happiness—a happiness I’m learning that can only come from looking within and not from anything external.
Nourishment on so Many Levels
There were so many things to be grateful for on this trip….I was grateful for the daily nourishment I got through deliciously prepared, wholesome meals, that were made with loving hands. I was grateful for my daily doses of fresh air, natural beauty and active wild life that I got to take in while walking to and from events and meals, And, most importantly, I was grateful for being held in what I call a bubble of love— which for me is a sense of community and belonging that grows over time from cultivating deep bonds with the divine and with like minded friends.
Evolving & Growing
Overall, there’s no doubt in my mind that my trip to India was just what my soul needed. Like a butterfly that’s breaking through her cocoon, my grief is evolving, which feels good. My time at the ashram allowed my spirit space to reflect and digest a big life transition and what it’s here to teach me. There are still intense days where I miss my mom and feel lost without her….but there are more and more days where I hear her words of advice clearly and feel the profound love that she so carefully planted and poured inside me over my entire lifetime.
Growing up believing that we are made up of more than just this lifetime is one thing, but truly experiencing it is another. My time at the ashram taught me through experience, that not only are we more than this body, but there are certain bonds in our lives that also transcend this little human body.
And most importantly, it reminded me that my meditation and spiritual practices are at my finger tips not only to quiet my mind and fill me with peace on a daily basis, but are also tools to teach me how to heighten my intuition, connect to the universal flow of energy and open my inner spiritual eye for the journey of my soul, not just this lifetime.
Here’s to evolving & growing!
xo,
Kajal
